For the past three months or so I’ve been prompted to write about this. And I really don’t want to.
I could easily write about something else – I’ve got several “logs in my eye” to choose from and have the “best of intentions” in many areas of my life.
I know this isn’t a big deal – or even a deal at all – for others to talk about it. I see it all over my social media feeds. It’s actually a regular topic of conversation in plenty of circles of women. Even men regularly talk about it. But not me.
I’ve got my reasons for not liking to talk about it. I’ve got my excuses for not doing anything about it.
And that’s the real issue. Not doing anything.
About what? I’m talking about my health and my weight.
There. I said it. And I really want to delete it and go on being vague, but we’ll just keep on going…
During the past couple months while I’ve been pondering ways to write about this, I’ve done a lot of introspection. Obviously, there’s more to it than what appears on the surface. Reading all the posts this month has encouraged me tremendously.
Ms. Nita’s question; Sarah’s encouragement to “practice what we preach” and Deanna’s shared mantra; Ms. Marilyn’s admonishment to be wise with our time; and Deborah’s stated reasons that keep her from accomplishing her goals. Each of these ladies shared things I could relate to in regards to taking care of myself in the way that I should.
It’s time to make the appointments that need to be made. It’s time to make better choices to better myself.
And just so this post has a point besides me revealing my embarrassing (to me) confession, allow me to share how I plan to be successful in all this:
* Get what’s in the dark out in the open. Holding your deck, so to speak, tight to your chest and not sharing allows it to get bigger (no pun intended) in your head than it probably really is. Oh, the conversations in my head! I can have myself defeated before I even start. I can make excuses and talk myself out of making right decisions. Things can’t be dealt with if I can’t admit openly there’s something there in the first place. Now, I don’t know if I’d suggest sharing in front of a hundred or so of your closest friends, but you get the point.
* Set a plan in place. It’s one thing to know something needs to be done. Now what am I going to do with that information. How are things going to get done? I want to act with purpose.
* Accountability. You know that road that was paved with good intentions? Yea, I hope to stay off of that road. Plans are being made to get with those I trust and who will hold me to my plan in a loving, supportive, and encouraging way.
So, there it is. Taking a deep breath and hitting the schedule button.
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You are awesome! And so brave! Thank you for putting yourself out there-it makes YOU that much more accountable, and motivates ME to keep going on the goals I set for myself this year!
Thanks, Mere! That’s just one reason why I really didn’t want to write this one – now that it’s out there – I really got to do it! Ack!! Put up or shut up, right!?
I am applauding your courage!!! I am with you on this one
i am here for you along the journey and I can’t wait to celebrate with you as you accomplish your goals!!!
Thank you! I was hoping you might be!
Love that the other authors help move each of us toward authenticity!
Love your opening paragraph, because who can’t related to “I’ve been prompted….but really don’t want to.” ?!? We’ve all been there! But you did it even without the “want to” and that’s not easy. That’s why I love ya.
(One of the many reasons.)
And I love you. Lots!
Thanks for the kind words!
Wow Anne- a lot of wisdom and courage in this post! Thank you for not deleting your words or being vague any longer- it helps make us each of us better!
Thanks, Ashley!
What a heroic blog post…doesn’t get much better than this! Do you realize what kind of subtle challenge you are sending our way for us to honor our values? THANKS!
I am so proud of you my friend. You will soon look back and realize that you did have the power to control things that seemed out of your reach.
I am here as your fan, cheerleader and encourager….I am literally a phone call away! REALLY…
Thanks for your encouraging words! Part of what’s embarrassing to me about this is the fact that I’m embarrassed of it. Ha! Feels so silly! Although I’m still kinda mortified it’s out there, it [almost] feels good.
Anne,
This is the stuff that leadership is made of! God will honor your boldness. Praying for you friend and challenged by all that you said.
Best,
Jen
Thank you, Jen! I appreciate your comment – it’s all quite humbling!
You can do it girl! Here is another of my mom’s favorites, “begun is half done!”. You are already halfway there. Congrats!