As I was contemplating what subject I would write about this month, I had an idea, but just couldn’t figure out where I was going with it. I waited until the very last minute to write it because nothing was coming to me at all. I quickly prayed that God would give me something that might bless someone who reads it and that is when I realized something. Almost exactly a year ago, I wrote about how sometimes it really is ok to look back at your life. In looking back, I was able to see how God had orchestrated tons of tiny things to work out all the major things in my life. Last year at this time, I was in a time of reflection and thankfulness at how some of the major decisions my family made had all worked out for good.
Now fast-forward almost exactly a year. Here we are facing some major changes and decisions once again, and that coupled with the stresses of daily life and work is quite a lot to handle. I know that we just shared a lot in the month of May about feeling unbalanced and ways that we try to bring balance to our lives. I guess I didn’t realize how stressed and unbalanced I was truly feeling until a few days ago when I had to drive out of town for work. I was headed to Littlefield, which is about 35 miles outside of Lubbock. As I turned onto Clovis Highway, I immediately felt a rush of relief and happy expectation. 32.5 miles of open highway. Just me, the open road and my ipod. Oh it was marvelous. I relaxed, sang at the top of my lungs, and just let my mind be free for a little while. The only thing I really thought about was the lyrics to my songs.
That’s pretty much all it took to relieve the stresses I was feeling. See, this time around, it’s a little different. While our changes and decisions are totally different this time, I know from experience that in the end, God is working out my story for my good and for His glory. I have my past experience that even when things look broken beyond repair, God is fixing and arranging the details in such a way that he is eventually going to be glorified. The other thing that is different in my life is the richness of my prayer life coupled with reading the Bible daily. Those areas were not as well developed the first time we went through some tests. All of these things make it easier to let go and trust God that with His guidance, we are going to make it over this next mountain.
I want to encourage you that whatever you are going through, even if it doesn’t turn out the way you want or expect, just trust and take comfort that God knows what He is doing and will bring you through to the other side!
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
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