Over the past few weeks, I have been in the process of unpacking and getting situated in the new home. Girls, you know this process. It can be really fun because we get to go through our clothes, shoes, and jewelry. I did a lot of giving stuff away and cleaning out closets. As I was going through my jewelry, I ran across a common problem that most of us have experienced with necklaces…..tangles!
The particular necklace I was trying to untangle, from the ball of tangled necklaces, was a Texas Tech necklace I had purchased for myself last year. It serves as a reminder of my sweet cousin Rachel Fonseca, who passed away a few years ago. She was a Texas Tech student and absolutely LOVED the Red Raiders. The necklace has a set of wings around a heart with the double T in the center, and I wore this necklace to every football game I went to last year.
As I took the time to very carefully untangle this ball of necklaces, I was taken back to a time when I was grieving Rachel deeply. See, Rachel was not just my cousin but she was my best friend…my soul sister. Her death was a huge life- impacting event for me and for many many days following her death, I felt like this ball of necklaces I am holding in my hand. I felt so tangled up inside that sometimes I thought there was no way I would ever get untangled and set free from this heavy grief I carried.
Day by day, I would give a tiny bit of my grief to the Lord. Inch by inch, I would get a little bit untangled inside as He took my tangles and carefully and gently untangled every ounce of grief I had. I allowed God to untangle me with His own bare hands until one day, I was totally set free from the depression and overwhelming grief I had carried inside for so long.
See, we all have those moments in life where everything seems so tangled up inside. We go through battles that nobody really sees but we feel them and they are very real to us. We have to accept that we are going through these tangled moments and then simply hand it over to our loving Father. He wants to untangle us and allow us to shine like the jewels that we are! He never wants grief, depression, sadness, anger, resentment, jealousy, or sin to overwhelm us to the point of no return. We have access to Him, and He is waiting!
There was a time in my life where I could not even think about Rachel without my heart feeling so heavy that I couldn’t even breathe. Thanks to my Father, I can now think of her and smile and feel thanksgiving for the amount of time I shared with her! Thank you Jesus for my sweet time with my Rachel. I am forever thankful and honored you blessed me with that time!