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Invisible by Brianna Richardson

My name is Brianna. While obtaining my bachelor’s in psychology, I studied suicide, and suicide prevention extensively. Even so, when I began to wrestle with suicidal thoughts my senior year of college, I found the process of reaching out for help to be more difficult than most people realize. I felt invisible, even to those closest to me, who had no idea of my struggle, despite the warning signs. Finally, after many hours of prayer, I sought help, and I was able to crawl out of the pit I’d fallen into.
Years later, when the lead singer of one of my favorite bands committed suicide, I thought back to the darkest season of my life, remembering the hopelessness, and my heart broke for him, knowing that he had not won his battle. I was then inspired to write this poem to give a voice to those who feel as though their cries for help go unheard, who feel unseen.
You are seen. You are wanted. You are loved. You have value. There is hope. There are so many more reasons for staying than there are for leaving. Please stay.
If you suspect someone you care about may be struggling with suicidal thoughts or depression, please reach out to them. It won’t be easy or comfortable, but please be brave enough to ask the hard questions. The answers may be hard to hear, but harder still is being left with questions that can never be answered

 

My hands are beginning to hurt.

My throat burns.

Mouth’s gone dry.

Still, I’m desperate.

So I try again.

My own screams

Bounce off the walls

Echo through my ears

Reverberate through my bones

Rock my soul.

The walls are a one way mirror

Allowing me to see the outside world and

how well it functions without me.

My prison is soundproof

and I’m tired of screaming.

Resigned

Convinced,

I press the razor to my skin.

Perhaps when the mirrors bleed,

the world will finally look

past its own reflection.

 

Brianna Richardson

 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 24/7 at 1-800-273-8255

 

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention

https://afsp.org/find-support/resources/

 

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  • Diane Qubty

    This is beautiful and dark at the same time. It makes me cry. Please don’t ever let satan lie to you again. God has plans of good for all of His children. This is such a difficult age- that 21-24 range. I don’t quite understand it but know we need more awareness. I love two who are now in Heaven at this age from suicide. So glad you are here to tell your story. Blessings and prayers ♥️

  • Lisa Hatchett

    Wow! You just never know what someone has been through! You, my friend are amazing and beautiful and have a story that will touch so many! Thank you for sharing “you!”

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